I HAVE BEEN LEAD TO BELIEVE THAT WHAT SOMEONE SAYS MAY BE TRUE AND ITS OK TO PUT YOUR TRUST IN SOMEONE.FUCK THAT....SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO QUESTION YOURSELF AND QUESTION OTHERS.A GIRL CAN TELL YOU ANYTHING,MAKE YOU BELIEVE SHE AINT GOING NOWHERE BUT FEMALE INSTINCTS ARE STRONG.THEY KNOW WHEN SOMETHING IS GOING TO HAPPEN.SO I ASK MYSELF,IF A FEMALE KNOWS SOMEONE IS ABOUT TO BRING THEM THE WORSE NEWS EVER,SHOULD THEY CUT IT OFF OR WAIT?SHOULD THEY PLAY ALONG WITH THE SITUATION AND LET THE OTHER TAKE LEAD?I HAVE NO ANSWER TO THAT BUT IF YOU SEE SOMETHING COMING,YOU SHOULD TRY AND STOP IT BEFORE ITS TOO LATE.ITS LIKE REGARDLESS OF WHAT YOU DO OR SAY,IF THE PERSON WANTS TO LEAVE,THERE GONNA DO IT.I MEAN,IS THERE A REAL DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GETTING YOUR SPACE AND LETTING A RELATIONSHIP GO?WHICH ONE HURTS THE MOST?WOULD YOU RATHER WAIT FOR A PERSON TO HANDLE THERE BIZ AND REUNITE WITH THEM AS YOU WISHED YOU COULD,OR DO YOU PUT AN EXPIRATION DATE ON YOUR HOPEFULLY FULLFILEED DREAMS?TELL ME,WHERE DO I STAND?CAN I STILL CALL U SWEET-NOTHINGS OR DO WE GO BACK TO JUST BEING REGULAR FRIENDS?AM I SUPPOSED TO ACT AS IF THIS IS A RELAXATION PERIOD OR A FINAL DESTINATION?AM I SUPPOSED TO BE ABLE TO SLEEP AT NIGHT AND DO YOU SLEEP AT NIGHT?DO YOU THINK ABOUT ME AND WHEN MEMORIES COME TO SURFACE,DOES IT HURT LIKE IT HURTS ME?IF IT DOESNT,DOES THAT MEAN YOU DONT CARE AS MUCH AS I DO?WHEN YOU TELL ME YOUR NOT GOING ANYWHERE,WHAT DOES THAT ACTUALLY MEAN? BECAUSE WHEN YOU TELL SOMEONE YOUR NOT GOING ANYWHERE,YOU REMAIN WITH THEM.HOW ARE YOU THERE FOR THEM?AS A FRIEND,A SOULMATE,AN EX,AN ASSOCIATE OR WHAT YALL WERE BEFORE THINGS CHANGED?DO I REALLY WANNA UNDERSTAND OR DO I WANNA QUESTION THE SITUATION AND IF I QUESTION THE SITUATION,DOES THAT MEAN I DONT UNDERSTAND?WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO UNDERSTAND?ARE U SUPPOSED TO HIDE TEARS,EAT NORMALLY,SLEEP NORMALLY,WALK AROUND LIKE YOU JUST HIT THE LOTTERY,LAUGH AT MEMORIES AND PRETEND LIKE EVERYTHING IS OK?OR IS IT OK TO CRY AT NIGHT,TREMBLE WHEN YOU HEAR HER VOICE,SAY YOU DONT CARE WHEN YOU REALLY WANNA SAY I LOVE YOU AND I MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU,DONT WANNA BE BOTHERED,AND GET MAD IF YOU THINK SHES DATING SOMEONE ELSE?DOES YOUR STOMACH TURN WHEN U THINK ABOUT HER LETTING SOMEONE EXPLORE HER BODY LIKE YOU DID AND SOMEONE ELSE CALLING HER NAME?BETTER YET,CAN U GET OVER THE FACT THAT SOMEONE ELSES LIP WILL BE SOON TOUCHING HERS AND SOME OTHER WILL GLOW LIKE YOU USED TO WHEN THEY SEE HER?ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO BE OK WITH THAT?IS IT SELFISH TO HOPE THAT YA WOULD ONE DAY GET BACK TOGETHER OR ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO TAKE THE LOST?HOW LONG WILL IT TAKE FOR HER TO GET OVER YOU AND WAS SHE OVER YOU BEFORE YA ROKE UP?HOW CAN YOU TELL?WILL SHE LEAD YOU TO BELIEVE THAT YA GONNA BE BACK TOGETHER WHEN SHE FIGURES OUT WHAT SHE WANTS?WHAT IF SHE WANTS SOEMETHING OTHER THAN YOU?HOW DO YOU GET OVER THAT?HOW LONG DO YOU HAVE TO BE WITH SOMEONE BEFORE YOU CAN SAY WE ARE MEANT TO BE?DOES IT MATTER?HOW CAN YOU TELL IF SOMEONE IS YOUR SOULMATE?WHAT IF YOU FEEL LIKE SOMEONE IS YOUR SOULMATE AND THEY FEEL OTHERWISE?WHAT IF IT WAS ALL A LIE?WHAT IF YOU LIED TO YOURSELF AND TOLD YOURSELF THIS CAN WORK WHEN YOU KNEW DEEP INSIDE IT WOULDNT?....HOW SERIOUS DOES THE SITUATION HAS TO BE FOR YOU TO REALLY GET OVER IT?WILL YOU EVER GET OVER IT ?DO YOU HAVE TO?IF SO WHY?HOW LONG WILL IT TAKE YOU TO MOVE ON?CAN YA STILL REMAIN FRIENDS?IF SO,WHAT TYPE OF FRIENDS?IS IT OK TO MISS YOUR EX AND WANT TO SEE HER LIKE USUAL OR DOES THAT CHANGE WHEN SHE BECOMES YOUR EX?WILL THINGS BE SEXUAL AND IF YOU TRY TO KISS HER,WILL SHE TURN THE OTHER CHEECK?WILL THAT HURT YOU IF SHE DID OR WILL YOU RESPECT HER WISHES,STAND THERE AND LOOK STUPID,THEN SAY IM SORRY,IT WONT HAPPEN AGAIN?WILL SHE WANT YOU TO STILL ACT LIKE YA STILL TOGETHER AND IS IT OK TO?IS THAT CALLED FAKE LOVE OR REAL CONNECTION?WHEN YA ARGUE,WILL SHE STILL APOLOGIZE OR DOES IT BECOME AN ARGUMENT BETWEEN TWO ASSOCIATES?IS IT MORE THAN THAT AND IS IT STILL OK TO SAY I LOVE YOU FOR NO REASON AT ALL?WHEN SHE LOOKS INTO YOUR EYES AGAIN,WILL THINGS STILL LOOK THE SAME OR WILL THEY LOOK SHATTERED?WILL THE HURT SHOW?WHAT IF YOU SEE HAPPINESS LIKE YOU NEVER SAW BEFORE?WHAT DOES IT MEAN?DOES IT MEAN SHES BETTER WITHOUT U?HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE FOR YOU TO START BLAMING YOURSELF FOR THE OUTCOME?IF U KNOW WHAT THE REASON IS,HOW ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO HANDLE IT?DOES LOVE GET WEAKER OR STRONGER?WILL THEY GET MAD IF YOU MOVE ON?ARE U SUPPOSED TO IF YOUR NOT SURE WHETHER THEY WANT YOU TO OR NOT?WHEN U DECIDE TO MOVE ON AND THEY WANT YOU BACK,HOW STRONG DOES THE LOVE HAVE TO BE FOR YOU TO GO BACK TO THEM?WILL THIS MAKE YOU INSECURE OR MAKE THE UPCOMING RELATIONSHIP STRONGER?WHAT IF THE CHOICE IS BETWEEN TWO?WILL SHE CHOOSE YOU IN THE END?IF SHE CHOOSES HER,WILL SHE BE HAPPY?WILL YOU BE HAPPY FOR HER?ARE U SUPPOSED TO?CAN U STILL RIDE OR DIE FOR HER?IS IT OK TO STILL QUESTION HER ABOUT HER PERSONAL LIFE?HOW DOES THAT MAKE HER FEEL?IS IT OK TO BE MAD AT THE FACT THAT YOU DONT GET THE ATTENTION YOU USED TO GET?ARE U SUPPOSED TO STILL CALL?DOES SHE WANT YOU TO?HOW WILL THE CONVERSATION BE?WILL IT BE FULL OF COVER UPS AND WHEN YA HANG UP,WILL IT HURT?IS IT OK TO STILL CHERISH YA EVERY MOMENT?SHOULD YOU FALL BACK?WILL SHE STILL GET BUTTERFLIES WHEN SHE SEES YOU OR WILL SHE PUT YOU IN HER PAST?WILL YOU BE APART OF HER FUTURE?DOES SHE WANT YOU TO?HOW ARE U SUPPOSED TO SUPPORT HER?AS A FRIEND.LOVER,EX,OR LIKE YOU WOULD SUPPORT FAMILY?WHEN SHE HURTS,DOES IT STILL HURT YOU?DO YOU CARE ANYMORE?WILL HER TOUCH FEEL THE SAME?IS IT SUPPOSED TO?HOW TIGHT WILL YA BOND BE?WILL YA BECOME ENEMIES?WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO NOT BE ABLE TO LIVE WITHOUT HER?DOES THAT MEAN YOU NEED HER TO BE A PART OF YOUR LIFE?CAN SHE GO TO SLEEP WITHOUT HEARING YOUR VOICE?IF SO,WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?WHEN SHE TELLS YOU SHES LEAVING,ARE U SUPPOSED TO BE OK WITH THAT?WILL SHE STILL STAY FOR YOU EVEN THOUGH YA NOT TOGTHETHER?IF NOT,WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?IF YOU GOT ONE CHANCE TO TELL HER HOW YOU FELT AND SHE WOULD UNDERSTAND,WHAT WOULD YOU SAY?WOULD YOU SHOW THE SAME EMOTIONS YOU DO BEHIND CLOSED DOORS OR WILL YOU BE A SOLDIER?WILL SHE SHOW YOU ANY EMOTION?ARE U SUPPOSED TO PUSH YOUR FEELINGS TO THE SIDE IF SHES GOING THROUGH OTHER THINGS?DOES THIS REALLY MATTER TO HER?IF IT DOESNT,IS IT OK?DOES SHE EXPECT YOU TO JUST BE THERE AND THATS ALL OR IS IT MORE TO IT?WHAT ARE U WILLING TO DO TO KEEP YOUR EX HAPPY?WHEN WILL YOU CONSIDER HER YOUR EX OR WILL YA START AS FRIENDS?WILL YOU EVER GET A CHANCE TO EXPLAIN.......
NO ANSWERS BUT A THOUSAND QUESTIONS!!!!!!...........Tynisha S. Thomas
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